Another horrible loss...

I am up late tonight waiting on my husband to get home from work.  There was an accident at work and when things break down he has to work long hours.  He has been there 15 1/2 hours, but I got a call from him that he is leaving now.

I was laying in bed crying.  An old friend from high school lost his 3 year old son this weekend.  We aren't close now, I see him around every once in awhile and say "hey" but that's it.  But when you hear about these things you want to find them and just hug them.  I wont.  I probably wont go to the funeral.  We just aren't close friends and I have been to way too many funerals this past year.  I just don't think I want to see another baby in a coffin. 

I pray I never know that pain.  My husband knows it all too well and I see how hard it is for him, but I don't really know the pain and emptiness.  I cant really feel the aching that would be in your heart every day for the rest of your life.  So tonight I am praying for Paul, Lea and their other 2 sons.  I pray they can find some peace in their lives and one day, happiness again.  Such a sad terrible loss.  Such a beautiful little boy gone in an instant from his family here who will suffer and feel horrible guilt over this.   My heart is breaking.